Claim It and It Shall Be Given To You

It's not always that we are given what we really want. Sometimes, we've got to be contented with what we have and no longer ask for what we cannot get. Even being a spoiled brat has its limits. However, if you truly deserve it, then it goes without saying. Ask for it, claim it, work for it, wait, and you shall reap favorable results. Oh my, I feel that I have so many things to be thankful for. 

"Good things always come to those who wait." That's the lesson I learned from the anime (Saiunkoku Monogatari) I watched yesterday. I didnt think that it would apply to me for today or that what I've been wishing for would eventually come true (I even forgot about it). Well, maybe that's why Patience is a virtue, eh?!

I'm not really a patient person. Despite being indecisive, I am also impulsive; which frequently leads me to many forms of trouble and regrets. I never thought that this moment would come. I've never felt this satisfied and blessed.. Well, when talking about work, that is. :D

I dont make sense, I know. But I cant help but write and post this rant. I'm just happy that I get to work with my friend now. Haha. Yeah, another shallow reason to rejoice. But even the simplest and smallest of things can make me happy. You dont have to look for bigger or extreme reasons to be happy, right? Or spend much just to enjoy yourself? I'm a practical person; but I'm also a splurge-spender. Haha

I'm just trying to remind myself that If I truly want something, then I should go for it. Claim it. If I dont, how could I attract success? But of course, I know this is not applicable to each and every situation. There will always be something, or someone, that I'd like to have but can never really own or get. Too bad but that's the way things are. Oh well, I'll just have to thank whatever comes my way.

Looking forward to working with you friend. I hope we'll be fine. :))

And thanks to the early morning "jinx" of another friend. I think that helped a lot. ;)

RIP, Nami :(

This is such a bad day - a really bad one. I feel so guilty.. and grief is trying to take the best of me... cant help but let the tears flow. If only my tears could wash away the sadness, and the feeling of guilt... I still cant get over it. It'll take some time, I know. But the pain right now is killing me. It hurts like hell. I can barely contain it. :(

My another favorite cat has died. Yes, this may sound ridiculous to other people; however, our cats (three of them: the mom, the older brother and the only girl - Nami) are already part of our family, I consider them my special siblings. I do my best to protect and feed them. Hearing them cry would bring me discomfort and worry; thus, it crushes my heart to see her struggle and die.

Yep, I saw how she died - she died in my hands as I tried my best to save her. But I guess I'm never enough to save her. Or maybe, it was also my fault that she didnt make it. Perhaps, I did the wrong first aid. So instead of saving her, I rushed her death. I dont know; I feel so helpless. I think it's better to blame myself. I was quite ignorant of what really needs to be done; and so I failed to save her. :(

They say dont dwell on things or failures which are actually beyond your control, including death. But I'm human; I tend to be sensitive or emotional, especially to my loved ones. I just cant accept the thought of a loved one passing away before my eyes. I cried and cried while trying to save my cat. Praying that I'll have the hands that can help her survive; but maybe I was really too late. It sucks not to be able to do anything at times like this.

I still dont know how to move on from this incident. Kind of traumatic and heart-breaking - I'd rather choose to deal with a love life issue than to bear with this kind of pain. :( The guilt is taking me over. The pain is unbearable. With all the memories, how can I free myself from this sadness and remorse? x_x

Nami, please forgive me if it was truly my fault. Please, rest in peace. :((

The Power of S.S.S pt.2

Here is the continuation of my previous post regarding The Power of S.S.S:

Slow to Speak
"The wounds created by your words are harder and longer to heal than the words inflicted by a sword."

Some people are quite tactless not just with their actions but more frequently with their words. Because many people like to talk more than listen, they tend to say things which are not actually called for. Many forms of relationship, including friendship, are destroyed through harsh words or untrue statements. If you don't think before you speak, you would have more chances of either not telling the truth or saying things which can only hurt other people. I guess it's better to talk less but with sense than talk more about something that is only useless or destructive.


- Passive speakers are those who don't relay the message they intend to share in the right or appropriate manner. This may result to misunderstanding. Passive people are known to be the silent types. They prefer not to talk that much even if needed. Though being passive can be, at times, beneficial, it can also bring forth more harm to others than lend help.

- Aggressive ones are prone to insisting what they want or believe in despite the arguments and possible consequences. They are like stubborn kinds of people. They voice out anything they wish to. They don't look before they leap. This results to more confrontations and unnecessary arguments.

- Assertive speakers are more mature. They are more aware of what they say or do. They choose when to assert their points and when to stop talking. Assertive ones choose to observe first, then listen and eventually blurt out their ideas and opinions. They are positive and inspiring speakers. Being assertive means respecting what others have to say and learning how to say no or disagree without losing your ground.

And again, “Be quick to listen, be slow to speak.”

Slow to Anger
While you can learn how to efficiently control your thoughts or discipline yourself when it comes to listening and speaking, it is quite difficult to always refrain yourself from getting angry. Sometimes, outburst of emotions are harder to manage than careless talking. Some people who managed to discipline their ways of talking and listening are having a hard time dealing with such emotion. Though you may be a person who knows how to handle your anger, there will always come a time that you'd certainly lose composure.

It's not necessarily that you have to get rid of your anger as it is not something that you can easily throw off. Just do your best to discard any situations that could light up the fury dwelling deep inside of you. "Be kind even to your enemies; for you will heap coals of fire on his head." Instead of entertaining your anger towards another individual, do your best to divert such negative emotion into kindness. And the moment you can feel a surge of anger running through your nerves, practice heavy breathing while looking into the brighter side of things. Deal with any issues without a hint of anger for more favorable results.