11-11-11 (The Start of a New Life)

Well, it's quite evident how popular the date today is. 11-11-11 has raised many issues, and triggered the curiosity of almost everyone; particularly those who are considering marriage, starting up a business, placing bets in the lottery or making any kind of gamble. However, there's no scientific explanation and evidence or something that proves the "special-ness" of the said numbers. It could be that something good is going to happen, nothing's gonna transpire at all, or something bad is going to take place in a large scale.

For me, this day signifies the start of a new life. Sort of too late to think of beginnings seeing how fast-approaching December (and the New Year) is? Well, not really. I guess it's a perfect time to let go of negativities and move forward for a more prosperous and productive life. Lot of unpleasant things happened to me and my family these past few months, so I think we deserve a break. Especially that my brother is about to come home! Our family's about to get completed, and I can't wait to see the day that we're happily bonding with each other again.

Besides, I was born on the 11th day of April. So, somehow, the day is very special to me. It simply means a lot of opportunities to start anew!

You are what makes each day special.

I am quite getting the hang of working at home. I have found a really nice client; a kind of boss that puts more effort into shaping the skills and passion of his workers. I feel so blessed to have been given the opportunity to work for him, and with my friend. Life's really different when you're inside your own world; you're the keeper of your own time. But I know it takes a lot of self-control to succeed in such endeavor. But so far so good, eh?! :)

The scent and feel of Christmas is already in the Air! And although we still don't have any decors or something, I am so excited for such occasion. The thought of us gathering makes me giggle with anticipation. I know most people feel the same. But come to think of it, many families are in a dire situation these days. I pray for them, that they may have the strength to move on. Lately, the world has become a battleground for survival. Perhaps, the end is really near. I just hope that things will get better next year, if there is still... ;)

On Fighting Indecision

I used to be indecisive; now I'm not sure.

Indecisiveness is one of my weaknesses that I really hope to overcome. I always have a difficulty making up my mind, particularly when it comes to making choices or when choosing from a number of options. Maybe it's because I tend to be impulsive at times. And in order for me to minimize the impulsiveness, I see to it that I don't immediately make decisions, especially when it comes to money matters and other serious issues. But most of the time, I see myself trapped between the given options that I worry about the consequences.

There is no more miserable human being than one in whom nothing is habitual but indecision

I have learned to overcome an indecision issue that troubled me these past few days. And it feels so great to know that you have conquered something that's not actually a big deal as long as you clear your mind and focus on dealing with the dilemma. It's really wise to take things slowly, one step at a time. There's no point worrying about everything when you could not even do something about a few, small problems.

I realized that indecision often takes place if you don't actually know what you want -- if you don't know what you want to happen, what you want to achieve, where you want to go, or who you want to be with. If you don't know where to start or how to get things started, then chances are, you are not going to get anywhere and be able to do whatever that needs to be done. It's also a matter of priorities. 

You need to define your goals and objectives. You have to assess your capacity; figure out your limits, but be open to all the possibilities so that you can get over your boundaries. You need to determine and set your priorities. From there, you can effectively decide what you need to accomplish first. You can then make a more appropriate and rewarding decision.

It is human nature to stand in the middle of a thing.

A Lonesome Halloween? x_x

Happy Halloween, everyone!! :D

This is perhaps the first halloween that I'm going to spend without my mother and siblings. They went to our province, and left me alone in our "once-creepy" apartment. But I'm not really going to spend the night alone. I asked my granny and her "assistant" to come over so I won't end up a lunatic the next morning. haha. Besides, I don't really think that I'm alone; you know what I mean. But of course, as long as "they" don't freak me out, I'll be fine.

And since I informed my friends about my situation, they bombarded me with creey teases and stuff. Even my brother and sister left me some very remarkable "words of wisdom." Even so, I know better than to simply let my fears and hallucinations take over me. I turned the radio on so that Christian music from our local Hope101 channel would envelope the house with God's presence instead. Well, hopefully...

Costume parties are everywhere. And while many people are busy preparing for their halloween parties/trick or treat events, I am rather pre-occupied by my plans for the future and my so-called masterpiece for a friend who's going to leave the country soon. Yes, I was pretty creative and determined (these past few days) to finish something that would serve as a heart-warming remembrance. I just wish he'd like and appreciate it.

Anyway, lots of bad things are happening nowadays. Christmas is fast-approaching, but I'm still in the lookout for the best and most credible way to generate a steady income. Hopefully, things will get better soon. And oh, I can smell the beach; I guess there'd be island hopping this weekend. Weeeee! :D

The Start Of A New Life ^_^

Well, well, well... Look who's back! :))

A lot of (bad) things happened this year; one of the many reasons why I couldn't find the time to update this blog. And of course, I'm a lazy bum. But now, I think I would have more time to blog and do many other things that I've always wanted to do. I just hope that motivation, perseverance and patience won't run out that fast. :D

After four years of working for "that" company, I decided to submit my resignation and start a new life where better options are waiting. Well, I'm still in the stage of adjustment. However, I know that soon enough I will be able to get hold of the kind of life that I've always wanted to live. Hopefully, there'd be lesser sources of stress and more triggers of success. I know I can do this. There may be some barriers or obstacles, but I'm quite certain I could overcome them all.

From now on, I will be working at home. Through this, I will have more chances of testing my level of consistency, discipline, determination and patience. I'm pretty sure that this kind of work, and life, needs more courage, persistence and discipline. I slack off, and I'm doomed. But I'm the keeper of my own time and efforts. There'd be less pressure and more time to do more meaningful things. And I don't get to mingle with annoying people everyday. Just me, myself and I. I know it will be pretty hard at first, but I won't give up.

On Failures and Success... x_x

One of the things I thought could help me make memories, and somehow help me change my ways or something like it, was to ask my friends to give me a dare or a challenge. Dares that could either improve my skills or help me learn new ones. Challenges that would test my courage and extend whatever I have. And those (25) dares are to be done on or before my birthday.

Well, some of my friends gave me difficult ones which I really liked, and some settled for things that I don't usually do. One of my best friends even warned me - "be careful with what you wish for..." :D

There are those who asked me to dress up so they can see me in a different light. hahaha. And those that merely wanted to see me in my most gruesome state. My seatmate/teammate/close buddy Cecille challenged me to consume "strawberry-inspired" goodies. Yes, I hate strawberries. My belly and taste buds are not compatible with strawberries. Fortunately, my friend was kind enough not to make me eat all the things that I hate. Lucky for me, I finished the dare without making any unpleasant scene. haha

Just let me enumerate all the dares I was able to do so far. Unfortunately, I didn't succeed on most of them. Several negative forces made their way to ensure my failure. But the thing is, I learned my lessons well. So it doesn't really matter if I failed. Uhm, on the second thought, I'd be much happier if I was able to finish them all with flying colors. oh well, whatever :P

Oh, see you on the next post. hahaha (my head is aching so bad I have to stop. ugh, If only my hand could do the talking without causing further pain to my head... lol)

Failure doesn't mean you are a failure... it just means you haven't succeeded yet.

Catching Up ^_^

Well, well, well... it's been a long time since I managed to make a post for this blog. Wohoo!

I actually wanted to make a new post last April 1 but my office friends invited me for a videoke bonding. Besides, I had a hard time logging in because I forgot about my account details. haha

Kidding aside, I really want this month to be a special one because I'll be turning 25 a few days from now! :D In fact, I was able to come up with a lot of things that could help me make more memories! :D And of course, help me become a better person.. *coughs :)

This year started okay; however, many different issues spiced up my routines. I made new friends, and somehow, I also managed to piss a few people... haha. I also have this "ups and downs" with a certain close friend. But I guess that's all it takes to strengthen our friendship. And while I'm trying hard (or am I really doing something) to become a pleasant member of the family, I still can't help but mess things up. Gosh, life is really something.

I thought that reaching the age of 25 should be the turning point of my life. I've been planning a lot of things, and hopefully, I can live up most of my dreams and goals. It's really hard to focus on something, especially that I always end up feeling bored doing the same thing. But hopefully, I can start things right and be able to finish something that could tell the world "I was here."

"Quote My Heart" ^ ^

“Three things tell a man: his eyes, his friends and his favorite quotes.”

Quotes - I have loads of them. I really love quotes and sayings, particularly those made by wise yet humble people. Whenever I can come across several lines as I surf the net, I see to it that I can save them for future reference. And I often share most of them to my friends...

Quotes can always serve me well. They inspire me. Quotes awaken my soul. They serve as a guide - in life, love and everything under the sun. When I'm down or feeling miserable, not motivated, lost and broken, quotes are one of my effective and lifetime medicines. They can actually cure a broken heart and soul. Of course, quotes are eye-openers; they present various truth that we tend to escape from.

But for now, let me share to you some quotes on love. I actually find them cheesy yet very powerful source of inspiration - motivating me to love, and to love more... unconditionally. If only love is as uncomplicated and fun as it seems. And, if only all people know how to love the right way at the right time... But I guess all is fair in love and war. ;)

“If I love you, what business is it of yours?” - Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” - Jalal ad-Din Rumi

Never apologize for showing feeling. When you do so, you apologize for the truth. - Benjamin Disraeli

“Love takes up where knowledge leaves off.” - St. Thomas Aquinas

“Love is like a friendship caught on fire. In the beginning a flame, very pretty, often hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering. As love grows older, our hearts mature and our love becomes as coals, deep-burning and unquenchable.” - Bruce Lee

“Love is like a Rubix Cube, there are countless numbers of wrong twists and turns, but when you get it right, it looks perfect no matter what way you look at it.” - Brian Cramer

“Love me when I least deserve it, because that's when I really need it.”  - Swedish Proverb

“You can't stop loving or wanting to love because when its right, it's the best thing in the world. When you're in a relationship and it's good, even if nothing else in your life is right, you feel like your whole world is complete.” - Keith Sweat

“You know it's love when all you want is that person to be happy, even if you're not part of their happiness.” - Julia Roberts

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” - Neil Gaiman

“If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we're apart.. i'll always be with you.” - Winnie the Pooh

“Do not seek the because - in love there is no because, no reason, no explanation, no solutions.” - Anais Nin

“A woman has got to love a bad man once or twice in her life, to be thankful for a good one.” - Marjorie Kinnan Rawlings

“I love you, and because I love you, I would sooner have you hate me for telling you the truth than adore me for telling you lies.” - Pietro Aretino

“I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.” - Maya Angelou

“Any man who can drive safely while kissing a pretty girl is simply not giving the kiss the attention it deserves.” - Albert Einstein

“In revenge and in love, woman is more barbarous than man.” - Friedrich Nietzsche

“It is a curious thought, but it is only when you see people looking ridiculous that you realize just how much you love them.” - Agatha Christie

“You can't blame gravity for falling in love.” - Albert Einstein

“If you judge people, you have no time to love them.” - Mother Teresa of Calcutta

“Life is one fool thing after another whereas love is two fool things after each other.” - Oscar Wilde

“I would rather have eyes that cannot see; ears that cannot hear; lips that cannot speak, than a heart that cannot love.” - Robert Tizon

“The love that lasts the longest is the love that is never returned.” - William Somerset Maugham

“Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get - only with what you are expecting to give - which is everything.” - Katharine Hepburn

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.” - C.S. Lewis

“When you fish for love, bait with your heart, not your brain.” - Mark Twain

“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.” - Lao Tzu